My name is Michael. I live in Massachusetts, and I am twenty-one years old. These are the things that amuse me - equal parts fashion, laughs, art, music, and politics.
Can the new Robyn music come out right now, please?
My current average in chemistry is around a 93%. If I do really well on the final, I can muster an A+! ;o Time to get to twerk.
I can’t control my hunger anymore. I feel out of control. I have always had some form of control over my appetite, which has always kind of ran rampant, even if it meant just saying no to a cookie. But now… I feel like I have no jurisdiction over any part of my body. I was so hungry last night, thirty minutes after eating a meal, that I started having a minor anxiety attack because I was trying so hard to not eat again. I feel disgusting in my body. I felt disgusting twenty pounds lighter, so twenty pounds heavier, I feel worse than I ever have about my own body.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t think it’s normal to constantly be hungry, regardless of how much I eat. I am never full for longer than thirty minutes. I feel lost. I feel unattractive and disgusting. I’ve been trying for a whole month to restrict what I have been eating, but the scale hasn’t budged. I feel like the only fraction of my appearance over which I ever really had power was my weight, and now that that’s gone, I feel worthless and as if I’m a marionette to my hunger.
I feel empty, and I want the world to swallow me whole.